1. So today is new years eve, which means tomorrow it's officially 2013 which means that tomorrow my new life starts, my new self awakens! This is going to be my year, nothing will bring me down, no one will tell me I can't, and if they do I will prove them wrong. I am going to be beautiful and successful and I'm going to be Robert's dream girl. I've screwed up a lot this year, 2012 has been a total downer for me, I've gained so much weight I've lost the love of my life, I've hurt my best friends... But this is a new beginning... This is my fucking year! No more eating late at night while I lay in bed watching TV dramas, no more binge eating, no more junk food, no more laziness, no more fat!!! I will be perfect... I will work for this... For him... I have a goal... I have a vision and I will succeed. There is nothing stopping me, there is no one standing in my way except for myself... But not anymore my friends. I want this so bad! I have just about 5 full months to get the perfect body... That is plenty of time and he is plenty worth it. Sasquatch this year is going to be the time of my life, nothing holding me back, I can walk around in a bathing suit, I can jump up into his arms when he sees me and we obviously instantaneously fall in love at the first glance. Green tea and water are my new best friends! Yummy! No more excuses, no more tomorrows, no more fat, just more and more thin. I will work everyday, I will sweat, I will work until I puke, I will suffer for this. I want this. Happy new years eve bitches, I'm ready for new years day!!! THIS IS MY YEAR.