So of course plans have changed for the night. Because no one actually cares and Daryl just wants to use me. Well you know what? Fuck him. Fuck him and his using me. I don't care anymore. He's not Robert. Pablo asked me to go out with him and I blew that off as well... I mean, may I should have gone... But I just don't feel much like it... I rather work on my diet and work out plans and watch 90210, maybe have a drink with my mom. I mean ifI went out I would end up getting drunk and crying over Robert anyway, like I always fricken do. I tried to tell Daryl I was going out with Robert but I changed my mind and told him that truly I'm just staying home and blogging because I know if he thinks I went out he'll think I slept around or something and I just can not deal with that drama with him anymore. He doesn't know half of what I did during the time we were apart... Or even when we were together! I hate everyone. Okay. No, I'm just putting myself in a bad mood. I mean, the only shitty part about tonight is that I'm 18 and I'm sitting in my bed on new years eve blogging while everyone else my age is out getting shitfaced doing drugs and kissing at midnight. Well to be quite frank the only person I'd want to kiss at midnight is Robert. Oh god that makes me wonder... I wonder if he'll kiss anyone for new years... Oh god I can't even think about that!!! Anyways it's fine, when Robert see's me as Sasquatch next year he will just fall in love with me, no matter who he's kissed while we were apart. Because we belong together... I know we do. And you know what everyone else can just suck it. Daryl for one can leave me alone, he thinks he can play these games with my head and my heart just because he's older than I am? He owes me the fricken world, he should seriously be treating me like a princess, he's so lucky to even have me!! I just want to get this job Neil told me about so I can make good money... Bleh. Okay, write my plane for the night in a little bit! xx
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